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I am writing this blog update based on something my mom said, “Your father and I have to deal with three of them!”

You either know exactly what I am talking about or you have absolutely no idea. For those of you who have no idea, one second. For those of you who know, way to go!

I am talking about teenagers. There are three of them in this house hold right now.  I knew I was a crabby hormonal teenager, it just never hit me how bad I was until my youngest brother became a teenager. It seems like it was just one day that he became a crabby hormonal teenager. I can not hold one sentence with him without being yelled at or snapped at or blamed for something. I don’t know how my parents do it with three teenagers in the house.

I formally apologize for my hormonal driven anger moments and attitude problems. I know I am not a pretty sight or an easy conversation holder. I am truly sorry.

Parents are miracles. They can do anything and everything. I have the best parents (yes, you two) who have given me my space when I needed to collect myself, who have pushed me to follow my dreams. Who raised me with Jesus in my heart, home, and school. Who have dealt with my teenager-self and not lost all respect and patience.

Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.

Thank you to all the parents with teenagers. Thank you for keeping your cool and raising us to be bright, talented, loving adults. It was you that made us this way. You did good. 🙂

It is July 4, 2017. What a day to notice. July 4th is a holiday in America where we celebrate the freedom of our country gained from the Kingdom of Great Britain. When the declaration of Independence was written making our country firstborn and ready to go out into the world to fend for itself in 1776. The country sees the flag as a resemblance of freedom. It is also seen as a resemblance of home, as loyalty, and as hope.

To me it is a mixture of these and so much more.

God has blessed me that I grow up in a country where I am free to talk about my God and I am so thankful for that.

God has blessed me that I grow up in a country where I can be whoever and whatever I want and I am so thankful for that.

God has blessed me that I grow up in a country where I am able to go where I want when I want (with permission from my parents) and I am so thankful for that.

God has blessed me that I grow up in a country where I am able to have friends living all over the country, and be proud to the moon and back a gazillion times, of what they do and have done. He has blessed me with friends who are great  artists. He has blessed me with friends who are strong in their faith. He has blessed me with friends who are very adventurous and outgoing. He has blessed me with friends who are strong and loving and caring. He has blessed me with the challenges of picking persons up who have fallen and needed lifting. He has blessed me in more ways than I could ever list in one sitting.

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I thank you Lord for the blessings you have given me. I thank you for the freedom you have blessed this country. I thank you for the people who are strong and willing to protect this country. Lord I ask that you keep this country together, that it may not fall apart that it stay strong in you, by you. Lord it is your will that be done. We will be your flowers and follow you. Amen.

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The fourth of July is a day to remember the beginning of this country and to thank the fathers of this land for risking everything for us, the future. The fourth of July is a day to look forward and think about those of this country in the future who will look back and think either, wow they were stupid, or wow, they pulled through in a way so that we could be here in this country with this freedom. We all hope it is the second. 🙂

Most importantly, the fourth of July is a day to thank God for everything he has given and done for the country.

Thank you, to all who serve. To all who have served. To those who will serve. You are loved and we are grateful.

Happy fourth everyone! Be safe, have fun, thank God.

I don’t imagine many of you know me from when I was really little. A little backstory, I loved sunflowers. That was my favorite part about summer every year, was the sunflowers would grow and become absolutely beautiful! We have not had sunflowers on our land in years. At first it was sad but after time I had slowly forgotten about them.

I am a Pinterest person. I am constantly on Pinterest finding various things for various reasons. Pinterest for me is my time passer, my stress relieving, and my boredom fixing go to. Any who, besides the point, I had found pictures of sunflowers. My love for sunflowers has returned. They are (to me) the most peaceful, beautiful, loving, comforting flowers.They way they follow the sun shows they know who to look to, like we look to Jesus for light. They shine so bright with their vibrant yellow like we are to shine for Jesus. These flowers are my forgotten joy. Sun flowers are like chocolate, they bring joy and sadness when you see them. Joy because it shows you happiness and love, and sadness because, the chocolate you are going to regret
eating later, the flower, you know
you don’t always shine for
Jesus they way the sunflowers do.

Goodnight, and let Jesus light shine from you as the suns light shines through sunflowers. Let you follow Jesus like sunflowers follow the sun.

Be Jesusflowers.

It is been quite a while since I have made an update. I have though about doing one for weeks, I just haven’t gotten around to doing it. I have plenty of excuses but they are just excuses.

Last week was VBS week, that is, Vacation Bible School. A friend and I do the crafts for the children together. 80 kids, 5 days, 400 crafts. We were very tired by the end of the week for sure! The week was good and fun, like other years.

The last day however I woke up with a very soar throat. After VBS that day I went home and crashed. I have been home sick for 4 days now. I still have a low grade temp off and on and can not stand long or I get dizzy, even sitting at my desk right now is harder than it should. I figure it is because I have not eaten more than a few saltine crackers since Friday (it’s Monday). My parents also say it is because I have been sick, I haven’t left bed much and when I have I have to sit after a while or I am laying down. I feel ridiculous laying around all the time but I know it will get me better quicker so I can get back to work sooner. I am told it is quite chilly outside this week anyways so I am not missing much. Which is good, but when you are laying around watching tv, movies, or sleeping because you really can’t do anything else and you see everyone else is outside or running around the house getting stuff done, you feel bad. I know I know, “don’t feel bad, your sick! You need the rest!” Yea yea yea, I have heard it all, and I am listening…sort of…maybe not…. I am better than the weekend, instead of a constant slight nausea it’s now more of a constant slight dizziness. It is quite weird when things don’t always focus but I just close my eyes for a while and it is better for a while.

Oh! I almost forgot, last week…Wednesday? I believe it was, Wednesday. I drove down to Black River Falls Wisconsin to meet for dinner/talk/walk. I was tired after the day of VBS but I didn’t care that much because I was going to see her. 🙂 She never fails to brighten my day with that amazing attitude. It was a beautiful day for a walk and I didn’t mind the drive either.

I signed up for college. I entered the Entrepreneurship degree. I really should learn how to spell that without using auto-correct. Some days I got it, others…well let’s just say it isn’t good. I just have to remember to go into town and pay for the classes and get a parking permit…I forgot every time I was in town last week, just slightly distracted I guess.

Alright, I will let you go for now…wow…this all happened within the last week. Well Goodbye! Oh, a quote from my white board I wrote a few months ago, “Love starts with Jesus in you heart.” Have a great 4th of July, and happy summer!

We arrived on Sunday evening, it is now Tuesday evening. It has been such a fun vacation so far! So many games have been played! It is a little humid here in Tennessee I will admit and being from the area of Wisconsin that I am from where there hasn’t been much humidity if any, this isn’t the easiest…oh well, I don’t mind too much.

Like I said we have played many games, there have been card games, board games, video games, and action games. The action games being like pool, ping pong, air hockey, and the occasional, “has anyone seen….” It is all fun, however :). Today we went to Pigeon Forge and went to play mini-golf and we also went to the Island. That was fun! Lots of shops for various things. We got many different shops and such and it was so yummy! I went to a toy store with one of my cousins and we had fun winding them up and letting them drive 🙂 with the four families we bought 19 items at Pepper Palace. Pepper Palace is a place you can get hot sauces, salsa, horseradish plus many more different items. They range from mild to it will make you cry.

We are back at the cabin now and there is a raccoon in the area. We became aware of this when one cousin opened the door to go sit on the deck and she screamed raccoon! It was quite comical 🙂 My grandma and I came running and we all took pictures. He went away and then a bunch of us were out on the deck and we saw him down on the grass (2 floors down). Then he started climbing up 🙂 some went inside, others stayed out. He went on the deck lower than all of us so some of us went down there. I have so many pictures of a raccoon now 🙂 One other thing about the little guy is his name is rascal 🙂 Now they want to scare him off in a way where it isn’t out of the woods but it is off the porch. Oh well, I will let you know what happens! 🙂

I am hungry at it is around dinner time I will update more some other day! 🙂 Have a wonderful week if I don’t see you again 🙂

As you could probably tell now, I think too much. It really isn’t helpful when I am weeding row after row day after day alone with no one to talk to…well lets be honest, I would probably still be thinking at the back of my mind.

Anywho, I made my decision about school for this year. I have decided to go to Chippewa Valley Tech for Entrepreneurship. That is such a long word, but might I point out that I finally spealt it right the first attempt. 🙂

I really don’t know what else to talk about…well maybe I just don’t want to talk. I am kind of tired and I have work tomorrow (last one before vacation :)). Don’t get me wrong, I love my job!! But it takes a lot on my body and sometimes it gets a little boring, oh well! Keeps me busy 🙂

Goodnight all, talk soon!

I know scary, I have been thinking. But I have. Many people say High school years are the best four years of your life. I know quite a few people who would disagree with that statement. You grow a lot in those years, oh yes, most definitely! But I wouldn’t say they are the best four years of your life.

Now other things I have been thinking about. What am I going to do with my life?

That is a huge question. It’s scary too. What scares me is I don’t know. I don’t know what I WANT to do. I don’t know WHERE to GO. I don’t know WHERE to START. I guess maybe I do. Jesus. Then go to the paperwork. Oh yea, I have been accepted at Bethany and Chippewa Technical College. I have to now decide what to do, and how to get there.

Beyond that, Life is going pretty good I suppose. Started work last Monday, worked to Thursday. Friday we had off and as of now I a working Saturday, Sunday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. Then it is vacation for a while and go back to work the day after we get back. It gets a little wearing but I don’t mind. I like to have a steady schedule and having something to do all the time. I suppose the paycheck is nice too. 🙂

One thing I have come to learn is a paycheck keeps you alive on this earth and comfortable. But the memories you make keep you living.

One other thing that I have been thinking about lately is a car. My youngest brother gets his license next year and that means another driver in the family. If he gets a job then we are one car short if my mom needs to go anywhere to. Life could get super hectic for everybody. I haven’t thought a ton about a car because my body could not handle more stress right now, but the thought is on a burner. I don’t know what I would get, or when, but someday I will think a little harder about this. When I have a more steady Idea of what I am going to do with my life perhaps 🙂

I also discovered I love being home alone when I am in a working mood. No offense to my family, but I can get things done very quickly and efficiently. I am not questioned about what I am doing or why I can just do it and get it done. For instance, after work one afternoon I decided to give my mom a mothers day present. I had not given her anything on mothers day and I felt bad. So I weeded part of a garden that she has been wanted to weed for a while and fixed the edging and fence. It wasn’t much, especially because I never finished the weeding part of the project but I wanted to do something for her. I had thought about going and buying flowers for the garden too but I know she likes to shop for flowers…that and by the time I had finished fixing the edging I was tired and hungry so I didn’t want to go back in to town. 🙂 But it was fun to do some yard work around the house and get stuff done that has been needing to get done. Of course I didn’t finish all the little projects that I need to try to finish this summer but it is a start.

Next project I think will be the fort. I was told that it needs to be cleaned and cleared out so that it can be taken down. Makes me sad because I made it one summer. My dad helped a bit of course but I planned it out and put the walls together. It was a fun project but it attracts hornets. So it is time to clean, and get rid of it. It will be a bitter/sweet thing. Bitter because its another chapter of my life closing and telling me it is time to let go and move on. Sweet because I get to tear something down, not to mention clean and organize things. 🙂

I love animals I really do. But seeing them hurting or getting old just tears at your heart. We have two cats that we have had since I was…two I believe. These two cats are 17 years old. That is very old for cats if you did not know that. Anyways, these two show their age every once in a while. Knowing that they are coming to the end of their lives and they have been such a big part of my life, it’s really hard to leave home. Having vacation coming up where we will be gone for a week scares me just because 1. I don’t want our house sitter to have to deal with that and 2. because I would have a horrible vacation if I got that call or if we got home and those two were no longer part of my life. I have been trying to prepare myself for years for when that day actually comes. I honestly don’t know how well I am doing with that…I have no tissues in my room right now…oh, I found paper towel, that works :).

I was going to end this on a more happy note, I get to see my cousins in a little more than a week!

Not kidding…I was going to end this post about 7 minutes ago…get me on a roll of rambling and it is hard to stop. 🙂

Ok time for bed, I have work tomorrow and should get some sleep. Talk more later!

P.S.
This was written the night before it was posted because the internet wasn’t working. That’s why it says I am going to bed 🙂

Well, summer has begun for me! I think I have been so busy I don’t really know. It just feels like no school but I am thinking about what to do for school next year and what to do for my life. I have been praying for God to guide me and to point me down the path I am supposed to go. So far, I don’t know. I have been keeping myself busy with various projects trying to keep my mind off what is stressing me out but it isn’t helping because after I finish the project I remember what I really need to do but am avoiding and the feeling in my stomach comes back. I know I would just feel better if I just set a plan and went with it. But what if that isn’t what I want to do for the rest of my life? Who cares, it’s something I am interested in now, I can change my mind.
I mentioned in an earlier blog post that I am interested in flipping houses. I have been thinking about that and I just don’t know if I could live a good life with a penny pincher and risky business as that is. I know it would be a really rocky start and with God, I will be fine but, I don’t know if I want to try something so risky. It is so expensive and time-consuming to have your own business as it is but to have to buy a house, pay for the remodeling AND the staging furnishes to sell it whether it is an open house sale or private is so pricey I don’t know where I would get the money. Then what if I go in debt so bad I couldn’t get out on my own and have to ask people for help. Oy, my debt would go up even higher!

Prayer: Lord you tell us to lay our worries on you. Please Jesus, I need your help and guidance. I ask that you help me find what is right for me. You said the possible job opportunity at Excel was not what was right for me and I appreciate that. It narrowed my choices down and I greatly appreciate that. Jesus I could use some more guidance as to what is best for me now. I thank you heavenly father for all the blessings and gifts you have given me. There are so many, you are so gracious. I pray that all be done in your glory to how you want it done. Amen.

Oh my goodness. I was tired Friday after moving in, and gone Saturday till late, Sunday was a busy day, Monday I was cleaning the storage room and today I was in town with the ladies. I never posted about Friday’s homecoming!
I came home Friday. One of my amazing roommates packed my little car full with all of my blessings that I had acquired at college. Below are some pics;

She fit a mini fridge, 3 large totes, 2 big suitcases, 13 pillows, a laundry basket, and 3 crates. Those are only the big things. The queen packer is her new name! Now I am home and helping mom with various projects around the house before having to start the busy work schedule of the summer.

Alright, Internet is not working very well so I am signing off. Farewell all, talk to you all very soon!

These people are some of the most faith based, fun timing wonderful people I have ever met, I am so grateful to have met them!

Thank you all I love you with all my heart!!! 🙂  <3

I am going to bed, I have a 7:30 exam and am tired from such a busy and exciting day!

Prayer: Lord I thank you for the amazing friends you have given me this year. I thank you for the chance to attend a faith based school again and to be surrounded by people who strengthen and feed my faith everyday. Thank you Lord for the opportunities and blessings you have granted me this year and my life. Lord I thank you for all. Thank you.

Love you all my friends!

I had two hard exams today and one…not. Haha
One of my hard exams I am not sure how I did on, the other one I think I did ok. My not so hard exam was for my rhetoric and composition class. For that class, we didn’t have an exam. We just met to go over our final projects which were ads that you could put on a screen or in a magazine. The trick of the ad was it had to represent what your paper is about. We were only together for 27 minutes. Which I was totally fine with because I could then study more for one of my other tests.

When we  finished our history exam and handed them in, we got back one our final papers. I didn’t know what to expect about this paper. But when I got it back the prof talked to me a little saying that he knows I have been trying to improve my writing all year (I have had him all year in two different history classes). He said that this one was my best and greatly showed my improvement. I got a B-!!!!!!!! all of my other papers for that prof have been in the C’s.

So far right now my exam week is going ok. I am a little behind on sleep due to the weekend and Sunday night not getting much sleep but it is 83 degrees out right now (I am writing this update outside) so I am doing good.

Moved inside, few hours later.

As I walked to dinner with a friend we noticed the sky was looking a little dark. When we sat down to eat I checked radar and a little cell had popped up. It looked like we may get a little bit of rain possibly. Well we got a sprinkle, then it rained a little harder for about 7 sec. Now the radar shows it literally going around us. It is raining on all sides but on us. It is bright and sunny out however, so it looks pretty outside with the dark clouds and the bright sun. 🙂

That’s all for now, I need to go study. Talk later!