I am finding it very hard to do my job well with a full heart.
We are all split into groups and it seems if you are talking with someone who does not agree with you everything is wrong, anger inside boils, and people get hurt.
I believe that this virus exists. I am not saying it is a hoax. What I am saying is the fear that is going along with it is tearing everyone apart and it needs to stop. The numbers have been lies from the beginning. The “scientific facts” about it have changed as the months have gone by. What every site agrees with is it a type of cold. Don’t fight me. I am tired of arguing. I am tired of the constant pain and judging from everyone to everyone.
I am finding it hard to work at a place I love when I feel judged every day. When I have to explain why I am doing what I am doing. When there is more sanitizer in the building than we will need for 2 years.
That wasn’t an exaggeration… Yes, cleaning is good. Yes, we need to be healthy but we have gone way past being healthy and keeping people safe and we have arrived at the point when we aren’t trusting God. We aren’t giving our worries to him. Everyone is freaking out. Everyone is saying we are going to die. I am tired. I am sad. My heart breaks again and again. I want the fear to leave and the faith to take over.
Everyone is trying to be smart so we don’t have legal issues. So there are no fines or jail time. WE SHOULDN’T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT THIS JUST TO LIVE. We live in America. The land of the free because of the brave.
I am worried about this election because there is so much fear. Those with fear are screaming while those who are trusting in God are not being heard or listened to. I do have hope that those who are being ignored are greater than those who are screaming.
Then there is all of the added stress on everyone to please the terrified and follow the new regulations.
I know many of you will not be thrilled with these notes and thoughts. I am not trying to offend. I am trying to release my frustration. I have written and said many times that this blog is like my journal. It is my place to say what I wish and what is on my mind. I am tired of not saying my mind because I am scared of the feedback.
My fear is no more. I am tired, I am sassy (not new but more), I am ready to stand by my God shining the Light He has given me. Today I am ready to stand up and say I am not scared. I am tired of the judgment. You have no right to judge me. It is our God’s job and right to judge. Back off or hear and see the Light of our God. I am not going to argue and fight. I am going to stand and smile with God in my heart and on my sleeve. Today is the day the Lord has made. Let us REJOICE AND BE GLAD IN IT.
I do not want to hurt anyone. I do not want to be the cause of anyone becoming sick. Guess what? I AM HEALTHY! I have allergies (seriously, who doesn’t.) I cough, I sneeze, I get headaches, My throat has moments of dryness and being sore, I have achy joints and I am short of breath many times throughout the day. I AM NOT SICK! I am a human living in a sinful world where pain and uncomfortableness happens and IS COMMON.
Psalm 118:6 Faith over fear. Did you notice fear is not capitalized? Did you notice faith is?