I Pray

God our Father, I come to you with a heavy heart, crying eyes and a confused mind. There has been so much this year. I have seen multiple things saying “if I go to sleep 2020 will have been a nightmare right?” “2020…but wait there’s more!” and others that are hard to place without context. I don’t know what to do anymore. You and I just spent some time together and you led me to writing this down.

You know Lord that I just read something that shook me and rattled me harder than others have. I need to go to bed. God, I don’t know if I will wake up refreshed.

This week I have been exhausted before I get out of bed I am ready for the night. I know I have had a busy week and it isn’t going to slow down any time soon. My ears have heard a lot and my eyes have seen a lot but I come to you tonight to grant all of us peace.

I am tired of my mind constantly racing. My ears are tired of the repeated noise. My body feels sick from the constant clenching. I want to scream but don’t have the guts. I want to cry but don’t have the strength.

Today in the sermon you showed me the verses from Romans 8:26-27. You talk about when we don’t know what else to do that we should come to you. Come to you in prayer, that’s what your words say. That the Holy Spirit works out the words in us.

Father I heard you this morning and I call out to you tonight. Please give us peace, give us knowledge. Please guide our hearts, minds and actions. I am on my knees in your presence, your child. I need your guidance; your almighty help.

Jesus, I thank you for saving me. I thank you for dying for my sins so in my Father’s eyes I am holy. Holy Spirit I reach out to you with thanks. You work and build my faith for when I was lost, I did not know who to turn to. Father, I thank you for your ear. Your time and your guidance. Amen.