God our Father, I come to you with a heavy heart, crying eyes and a confused mind. There has been so much this year. I have seen multiple things saying “if I go to sleep 2020 will have been a nightmare right?” “2020…but wait there’s more!” and others that are hard to place without context. I don’t know what to do anymore. You and I just spent some time together and you led me to writing this down.
You know Lord that I just read something that shook me and rattled me harder than others have. I need to go to bed. God, I don’t know if I will wake up refreshed.
This week I have been exhausted before I get out of bed I am ready for the night. I know I have had a busy week and it isn’t going to slow down any time soon. My ears have heard a lot and my eyes have seen a lot but I come to you tonight to grant all of us peace.
I am tired of my mind constantly racing. My ears are tired of the repeated noise. My body feels sick from the constant clenching. I want to scream but don’t have the guts. I want to cry but don’t have the strength.
Today in the sermon you showed me the verses from Romans 8:26-27. You talk about when we don’t know what else to do that we should come to you. Come to you in prayer, that’s what your words say. That the Holy Spirit works out the words in us.
Father I heard you this morning and I call out to you tonight. Please give us peace, give us knowledge. Please guide our hearts, minds and actions. I am on my knees in your presence, your child. I need your guidance; your almighty help.
Jesus, I thank you for saving me. I thank you for dying for my sins so in my Father’s eyes I am holy. Holy Spirit I reach out to you with thanks. You work and build my faith for when I was lost, I did not know who to turn to. Father, I thank you for your ear. Your time and your guidance. Amen.
SimpleBlessings,
As my wife and I prepare for our stay at your BnB I took the time to scan your website and associated links, and my search has brought me here.
As I read your post and hear your words of hurt, confusion and pain, I cannot help but respond to let you know something is listening and someone is praying for you.
I do not know what circumstance you found yourself in two weeks ago, but rest assured that it was no circumstance that God did not see and no circumstance that God is not sovereign over.
Your post shows a posture that you have taken which God delights in and says to us, “For when you are weak, I am strong”. His strength I pray will shine through you as your strength has been laid flat.
Lord, please hear our prayers as you incline your eye and cast your gaze towards your children. I ask for healing of the body, mind, heart for this child of your. Lead her past still waters and let her lie in the pastures you set for her, knowing that as your shepherd we shall not want anything more.
In your Sons name I pray, Amen
Jared Kidder
Thank you so much for these uplifting comments! Your kind words ran miles in my heart. Since this post God has blessed me with so many amazing moments to help me ease my mind and heart. May God bless your travels.