I Have Been Thinking…

I know scary, I have been thinking. But I have. Many people say High school years are the best four years of your life. I know quite a few people who would disagree with that statement. You grow a lot in those years, oh yes, most definitely! But I wouldn’t say they are the best four years of your life.

Now other things I have been thinking about. What am I going to do with my life?

That is a huge question. It’s scary too. What scares me is I don’t know. I don’t know what I WANT to do. I don’t know WHERE to GO. I don’t know WHERE to START. I guess maybe I do. Jesus. Then go to the paperwork. Oh yea, I have been accepted at Bethany and Chippewa Technical College. I have to now decide what to do, and how to get there.

Beyond that, Life is going pretty good I suppose. Started work last Monday, worked to Thursday. Friday we had off and as of now I a working Saturday, Sunday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. Then it is vacation for a while and go back to work the day after we get back. It gets a little wearing but I don’t mind. I like to have a steady schedule and having something to do all the time. I suppose the paycheck is nice too. 🙂

One thing I have come to learn is a paycheck keeps you alive on this earth and comfortable. But the memories you make keep you living.

One other thing that I have been thinking about lately is a car. My youngest brother gets his license next year and that means another driver in the family. If he gets a job then we are one car short if my mom needs to go anywhere to. Life could get super hectic for everybody. I haven’t thought a ton about a car because my body could not handle more stress right now, but the thought is on a burner. I don’t know what I would get, or when, but someday I will think a little harder about this. When I have a more steady Idea of what I am going to do with my life perhaps 🙂

I also discovered I love being home alone when I am in a working mood. No offense to my family, but I can get things done very quickly and efficiently. I am not questioned about what I am doing or why I can just do it and get it done. For instance, after work one afternoon I decided to give my mom a mothers day present. I had not given her anything on mothers day and I felt bad. So I weeded part of a garden that she has been wanted to weed for a while and fixed the edging and fence. It wasn’t much, especially because I never finished the weeding part of the project but I wanted to do something for her. I had thought about going and buying flowers for the garden too but I know she likes to shop for flowers…that and by the time I had finished fixing the edging I was tired and hungry so I didn’t want to go back in to town. 🙂 But it was fun to do some yard work around the house and get stuff done that has been needing to get done. Of course I didn’t finish all the little projects that I need to try to finish this summer but it is a start.

Next project I think will be the fort. I was told that it needs to be cleaned and cleared out so that it can be taken down. Makes me sad because I made it one summer. My dad helped a bit of course but I planned it out and put the walls together. It was a fun project but it attracts hornets. So it is time to clean, and get rid of it. It will be a bitter/sweet thing. Bitter because its another chapter of my life closing and telling me it is time to let go and move on. Sweet because I get to tear something down, not to mention clean and organize things. 🙂

I love animals I really do. But seeing them hurting or getting old just tears at your heart. We have two cats that we have had since I was…two I believe. These two cats are 17 years old. That is very old for cats if you did not know that. Anyways, these two show their age every once in a while. Knowing that they are coming to the end of their lives and they have been such a big part of my life, it’s really hard to leave home. Having vacation coming up where we will be gone for a week scares me just because 1. I don’t want our house sitter to have to deal with that and 2. because I would have a horrible vacation if I got that call or if we got home and those two were no longer part of my life. I have been trying to prepare myself for years for when that day actually comes. I honestly don’t know how well I am doing with that…I have no tissues in my room right now…oh, I found paper towel, that works :).

I was going to end this on a more happy note, I get to see my cousins in a little more than a week!

Not kidding…I was going to end this post about 7 minutes ago…get me on a roll of rambling and it is hard to stop. 🙂

Ok time for bed, I have work tomorrow and should get some sleep. Talk more later!

P.S.
This was written the night before it was posted because the internet wasn’t working. That’s why it says I am going to bed 🙂